I'm Back!

Hey everyone, sorry for such a long time away. I have been in a process of soul searching. Thank you all for your patience and prayers. It's is so refreshing to allow the Holy Spirit to renew you from time to time. Sometimes we get so busy that we forget about what's really important, ie: Relationship with God, Wife, Children, then ministry. God has used this time to reveal to me my heart, and how disconnected I had become, even from my family. So know we are making plenty of time for family (keep me accountable). Thank God I have such and awesome and loving wife. She is incredible. I am so blessed.

Anyway, God is doing so many cool things in our life, and we will be telling you all about it in the upcoming blogs. Right now, God is having us to look foundationally at the structure of the ministry so we can withstand the storms of tomorrow. God is so Good. Kelly Boles just became our 1st graduate from Teen Challenge, she is doing great and she is very excited to get out and help others in need. There will be an article in the Courier (Front Page) in the next couple of days. We are very proud of her, and even more excited about what God is doing in and through her. Also, for those of you who have loved ones or know someone who struggles with drugs/alcohol/or any other life controlling issue, a rally team from Teen Challenge will be at New Covenant (815 W. Western Road, New Castle) at 10am on the 5th of Oct, and also at Crossroads Church on S.R.3 at 6 pm that evening. Please if you know anyone that struggles in these areas GET THEM THERE! It will be life changing.

We love you all and please be encouraged in the Lord today, Jesus is Lord of all. I want to give a shout out to my two little angels who brought us a truck load of food the other day. Your love is so beautiful to us, thank you for your servant heart. We appreciated and needed that more than you will ever know.

I will talk with you all very soon. Tell everyone you know that I am back online, check it out, God is moving and He wants to use you to be His vessel!

I need Your eyes!

I am so tired of seeing things the way I do. I hate it! All we do is look at things the way the world sees things. Isn't that pithetic, all we do is look at the negative in people. We very rarely look at the postive or even the potential of someone. It is funny for me, I can look at a drug addict, alcoholic, or someone battling with depression and I can see greatness. But when it comes to my wife, or those who are close to me, all I look at is the weakness. How ironic is that. Someone who has a visual, fully apparent weakness has greatness, but when someone close to me does something small, it defines who the are as a person. YUCK!

I need Your eyes Lord, the eyes that look past the critical judgements of my heart. I need Your eyes Jesus so I can Love like You Love. I must have Your eyes God, so I can have unlimited patience in my life. Most of all God, I need Your eyes so I can see what I have to change in my life! That's the real reason I need Your eyes!

Psalms 139:23-24
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Freedom!

WOW, I just got some great revelation yesterday. David Mallonee was speaking at our Church, and then at Aletheia later in the evening. He teaches on Biblical Finances, not the prosperity message that we've heard before on T.V., but true biblical principles for Gods prosperity in our lives. It was very freeing to me. One of the things that freed me up the most was when he shared the story of Paul the Apostle. He shared the power of his ministry, and how he was probably the most powerful minister of all times, and at the same time he worked part-time. That's right, Paul the Apostle was a part-time minister. He was a tent maker by trade, and he did it all the days of his life. He was a self funded minister. This excited me for many reasons and here is why. 1. I hate to ask anyone for money! 2. If I am working outside my ministry, then I am not bound to someone elses feelings of how I have to run the ministry because they are helping to fund it! (Like, federal grants or even people). 3. I can still make my own hours and make time for ministry. 4. I would have the financial freedom to get my debt paid off, and not depend on the big 10,000 dollar check. 5. I can be an abundant giver 6. All the money that comes into me for my support can be put into the Dream Center account for the Dream Center. 7. I will be able to take my wife out to dinner when ever I want to!!!!! These are just a few of the reasons. You see, the point is not to be a millionaire, just to increase the gospel in whatever way we can, and while doing that we increase our lives too. I know that my thoughts are very skattered but it is 7 am, give me a little grace. I am blessed to know that my giftings outside of the kingdom, can still be used to increase the kingdom. I'll write more on it later!

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This is where I am at!

Sorry everyone, I have taken a little time away to re-focus my life. I have been so busy lately that sometimes I don't know whether I am coming or going. But still, my God is faithful. It's funny to me, even when I get wrapped up in me, and the things I do, He just looks down with a deep longing just to communicate with me. WOW, what a loving and sweet God I serve. He Loves me soooo much. I am very greatful.

My summer has been a rollercoaster, mostly of what I have created, but there have been some ordained activities of God (thank God I don't miss it all the time). As I look back, I look in the mirror and see a person that has so much passion and confidence in His God, that sometimes he overlooks the more important things in life. Of course that person is me! When I go deeper into the Heart of God, I see that we are a people that get stuck on the 2nd Commandment, and neglect the First one. 2nd Commandment, "loving our neighbor as ourself" trying to meet the needs those around us, and the 1st being, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all of your strength. Even the best Christians get this turned around. We are such a society that needs affirmation in the things that we do, we actually feel good about ourselves when we do good for each other. For those of us who are servant junky's, we can easily get these two commandments flipflopped. Trust me, I have to fight not to stay in that place. I love to serve, I feel closer to God when I am serving and helping someone more than any other thing I have experienced. Is that right? I don't think that it is a matter of being right or wrong, but what is important is the motive of my heart. The real question is, "what is the motive of my heart when I serve?" Am I trying to fill my empty heart with doing good works, or are my good works and overflow of my 1st commandment devotion to my King? Com'mon you know exactly what I am talking about. We all have wicked and selffish hearts, even those of us who have the purest motives. Thank God that His mercy is new everyday morning!

Lately, I have been going through a heart surgery (not physcial, but spiritually), and as God has been exposing me to my heart, I have been able to acknowledge that there are areas in my life that need special attention. I am so greatful for the Processes of God. Lord thank you so much for never giving up on me, thank you so much for your unlimited patience in my life. You are such a gracious Lover of my soul. I want to be a 1st commandment Lover! I want to know God's Love in such a greater measure, so I can, in some small way represent the character of Jesus Christ. God ravish me with your Love. Please Lord, bring a greater revelation of your Love to me. I need Your Love in my life, it's only through Your Love that I can live my life to Glorify You!